Where Have You Been, Beba?
It must have appeared like I fell off the face of the photo world. Actually, not exactly. While I haven’t been blogging or staying as up to date with social media, I have been staying busy with my photography business behind the scenes. The majority of my clients are from word of mouth referrals, so my business has been fruitful.
A big change came for me though, after I had my surgery in November 2016. Medical bills began piling up and in order to not drown under their weight, I returned to a full time accounting position during the day and switched to photographing part time.
I questioned God during that time because I knew He had led me to being a full time photographer in the past, but when I was at the height of my career, it seemed like everything with my health snowballed downhill at once. Was He leading me away from photography? Was this not the path He had chosen for me?
I wrestled. A lot. But over time and much prayer, I look back and am thankful that He allowed me to experience what I did. Not only did it make me a stronger person, but it also challenged me to look long and hard at my photography:
Was this how I envisioned it to be when I said I wanted to be an entrepreneur?
Was I doing the things I said I wanted to accomplish?
The answer is no.
I wanted to do more, be more, connect with more people. I realized in my time away while recovering, that the thing I love most about photography is PEOPLE. They are the reason I get excited to pick up my camera. I love helping them to see themselves differently and boost their confidence levels.
I wanted to podcast.
I wanted to blog.
I wanted to speak.
I wanted to expand my Beba Couture brand.
So many dreams and aspirations that I had tucked in my head, but my business model needed some improvement to make those things happen. Because, while I was staying busy with photo work, I wasn’t allowing any room in the margins to pursue my aspirations.
So that brings me to today.
What is going on and where am I with my photography business?
I’m still photographing. I was swamped during the Fall and Christmas holidays.
But I’m going to be taking another break soon. Not for surgery. This time for something completely celebratory and wonderful!
I’M GETTING MARRIED!!!
I’ll be getting married this November and in order to enjoy the Bridal process and to focus on prepping for the big day, I’ll be photographing my very last time for 2019 at the end of May. After that, I won’t be picking up my camera again until 2020.
When 2020 comes, I hope to have clearer focus (No 20-20 pun intended!) and allow enough room in the margins for doing as much dream growing as I am actual elbow grease working. This may entail hiring someone for administrative and sales duties while I photograph. It may mean creating content ahead of schedule. It may mean blogging my wedding journey.
I’m not sure yet to be honest! But I do know that I’m not done with photography yet and photography is not done with me. When you drive over a few bumps in the road, you keep going and that’s what I’m doing. I’ll see you afresh and anew (and as a Mrs!) in 2020!